Big Decisions to Make

I feel like I am on an emotional journey right now, and I just don’t know what to do.

Last weekend Stefan had admitted to me that what I had thought was a fun lil’ flirtation actually meant much more to him. He has developed feelings for me and he wants to explore where that takes us. Of course he has!

Early yesterday morning Stefan came over to pick up Röbert, and he looked terrible.  He clearly has been spending as much time crying as I have this past week.  He and Röbby were headed up to play something called paintball with a group of friends from college, and the place was two hours away.  When they got to their friend Saul’s house, Stefan said he was sick, and turned around to come back here, while the rest of the guys headed off for a day of fun.

I had dropped the kiddos off with their grandmama’s housekeeper for the day.  Did you know that housekeepers normally have Sundays off?  I didn’t.  Fortunately I could tell she was home in her lil’ studio over the garage so I played a lil’ game of ding-dong ditch and turned off my phone.  I am sure it was her pleasure to have three such adorable children for the day.

Stefan and I drove out to a state park where it was mostly poor people so we knew we wouldn’t see anyone we knew and had a nice walk in the beautiful fall weather and spoke about our feelings and plans and desires.

It is surprisingly enjoyable to have a fabulously weatlhy and attractive man tell you how wonderful you are over and over.

He wants us to both leave our spouses and be together.  He thinks we could take a few months to travel the world and then come back and get married.  Just think how jealous everyone would be!  In your face, Margie with your stupid annual trips to Disney World!  I could blog about which room service waiter is the most obsequious at the George V while you posted your zillionth picture of the teacup ride.  LOL!

Of course I am not sure what to do because I am so happily, happily married and adore my children and all that.  But we could afford to send Merlin to boarding school and Starling could come visit us on a yacht.

Is it possible to be in love with two men at once?

He also gave me some gorgeous earrings with huge sapphires, but I couldn’t take them.  He said he is keeping them safe for me.

I told him I need time to think and so we are waiting until after the holidays to make our final decision.  I don’t know what to do!  It would be so nice to be really rich.

Do You Know the Way?

I have recently decided to take my blogging habit a little more seriously and what better way to begin than attending a blogger convention on the other side of the country?  I mentioned to Robert that I was going and he was not supportive AT ALL!!  I was shocked.  He said we can’t “afford” it.  I pointed out that he takes business trips all of the time and we seem to afford those just fine.  My blog IS my business and he needs to recognize that.  Well then he said that my business has approximately zero views per day.  Okay, he has a point, but how in the world could I ever get page views without traveling to a convention, staying in a hotel and hearing experts speak about branding and monetizing my blog.  I am sure this trip will pay for itself in wonderful sponsorship opportunities.

So I left the room and went to cry in my bathtub.  While I was in there Hummus came in and pulled himself up on the wall and stood!  So adorable!

I waited until Robert was gone for the day and I drove the kids over to my parents.  My Mom was surprised and said something about weekend plans but I am sure they can figure it out.  Grandparents just love spending time with the littles, right?

I drove home to quickly pack up.

Then I was off to the airport!  Did you know that it can be very expensive to book a last minute flight?  It really can, but so worth it.  My flight was filled with people who obviously don’t know as much about travel as I do, but I was excited to be off to my dream destination, San Jose!

When I arrived I was surprised to discover that there was no car waiting for conference attendees.  We had to find the hotel from the airport on our own.  When I rented a car several lovely ladies who were heading my way volunteered to keep me company in the car. Such fun!

We got to the hotel and I couldn’t believe that there were no rooms available!  What now?  Would I have to fly all the way back across the country?  Luckily one of the gals I had driven over with had a room, but had lost her credit card.  I had a credit card Robert had left in his bureau so walla, we were in.  It turns out that she is sharing the room with a number of her friends so we are sleeping 6 to a bed. Funnnn!

We all wandered down to par-tay, but my friends disappeared.  I was able to enjoy a great sunset on my own!